give me gravity

support!

2007-12-16T15:04:36Z

the reason why i made my lj "FRIENDS ONLY".

2006-12-09T19:38:33Z

YEA HI. PUBLIC ENTRY FOR EVERYONE WHO IS NOT ON MY FRIENDS LIST.

YES. I NAT, THE MAD, AM A FRIEND OF PAUL TWOHILL (like... OmGzX!). ADDING ME ON FRIENDSTER IS ONE THING, WHAT IS YOUR IDEA? THAT BY BEING MY "FRIEND" YOU WILL GET TO KNOW PAUL TOO? SO YOU COME TO MY LJ TOO ALMOST EVERYDAY I PRESUME, TO CLICK ON MY LINKS AND VIEW MY STUFF AND ALL. YEA OKAY FINE. VIEW ALL MY STUFF IF YOU HAVE TO. BUT FOR FUCKS SAKES, DONT USE MY PICTURES OR WORK WITHOUT CREDITTING ME, IF YOU ARE NOT IN THEM, AND ESPECIALLY IF I DUNNO WHO THE HELL YOU ARE.

ONLINE FRIEND DOES NOT = REAL LIFE FRIEND,
UNLESS YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO GET ME ON MSN AND "FORCE" ME TO LIKE YOU.

AND YEA, PLEASE STOP RIPPING WHATEVER "SMART" SOUNDING QUOTES YOU CAN FIND ON MY LJ OR DEVART. IT IS NOT FLATTERING TRYING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE/SUCKING UP/WHATEVER YOUR LAME INTENTIONS ARE.

IF YOU WANT, YOU CAN JUST CALL YOURSELF NATALIE TOO. CAUSE I DONT THINK USING EVERYTHING I HAVE ONLINE IS ENOUGH. THIS IS MY INTERNET FORTE, GO TO HELL IF YOU CANT FIND YOURS BIATCH.

and paul, if you read this. i hate you for going into singapore idol and having your desperate little fans coming to add everyone on your friendster list and whatsoever, and even googling everything about you, so they can feel a part of it. UGH. WE ARE YOUR REAL FRIENDS WHO LIKED YOU BEFORE YOU WERE A LOSER AND UNHEARD, NOT YOUR TROPHY FRIENDS YOU CAN SHARE WITH YOUR FANS WHEN YOU ARE BUSY WITH YOUR LIFE.

if im being bitchy, fuck you. imagine how you'd feel if people copied you and everything, im sure you'll feel just awesome having clones around. especially if they were SEVERELY underaged kids. goddamn.

your heart's coming too.

2006-08-15T14:42:06Z

i got sick of the whole 'some-public-and-some-friends-only' entries. so from today onwards...

this is for friends only. please give me beans/candy/money/comments if you want to be added, and please please please tell me who you are and where you're from and how/why you want to be added if i dont know you! thank yousz. dont have an lj? well, too bad. but who wants to know what goes on in my life anyway? all i do is stuff my face in a bowl of self-pity and complain way to much. heh.

drown your dreams with love

2006-08-13T15:58:07Z

all for the scene,
none for the music.

dear sell-out, do tell me what your point is?

without me by your side

2006-08-11T21:03:12Z

before i sleep, i would like to say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE LIM! and let you all know that pictures of nicole's 18th birthday at east coast are up!

click here: i like fat chicks and i cannot lie!

how many hearts will die tonight?

2006-08-10T19:49:11Z

...definitely one less (mine). YAYZA!

HIHI HELLOHELLO. MY LIFE IS ALL ROSEY AGAIN SUDDENLY. HAWHAW. SCREW THE WORLD AND WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY ABOUT ME AND YOU AND YOUR MOTHER AND YOUR FATHER. JOY TO THE WORLD THE CUNTZ AND TREESZ. 'NUFF SAID.

btw, i have "invented" this drink i call NATS COOL TEA THAT IS WARM. okay fine. it has hell lot of honey in it. and i find it uber yummy. or maybe cause i was uber hungry. anyways! MY TEA IS COOL... though it is kinda warm-ish. im tired. im tired. for the first time in a long time i actually do want to sleep and it's not even 4am yet. yayie. OHOH. AND RAHIMA RAHIM IS OUT OF IDOL. YAY! NO MORE SCARY GERBIL/GUINEAU PIG/HAMSTER RODENT THING!1!1 im cold. cold cold. and i feel like eating the lollipop i bought for justin on sunday. but i told him i bought him a lollipop already, so he's expecting it... MEANS I CANT EAT IT. FUCK. haha.

im feeling so gh3y today. like i could come in my puhhntsz. like eww, wtf.

if this is what it takes to laugh at my mistakes.

2006-08-09T19:15:35Z

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Words of Affirmation:		7
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		5
Acts of Service:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

i miss justin.

it's just a matter of time

2006-08-09T16:26:59Z

OKAY. there is a cockroach somewhere in my room (it disappear after i threw something at it) and it doesnt make me feel any less insecure. FUCK. i want to take a shower, but im so scared i'll run into it somewhere. it's not even a baby cockroach. how gross please! and it's not like i have any food in my room. STUPID SHIT. ugh.

i want to die. i want to die. have i told anyone recently i want to die? anyway, YEA. today is wednesday, and wednesdays are screwed up. I HATE WEDNESDAY. bloody midweek. for some reason, though nothing is bound to happen on wednesday, something will annoy me or smth like that. like at 8.30am my mom had to wake me up to get me to return her the camera. pffffffft. was so annoyed. i swear. and then the cockroach had to magically appear. I HATE COCKROACHES. THE FRIGGIN COCKROACH AND ANT POWER THING SOOO DIDNT WORK, YAH. okay, im just terribly upset today. i need to talk to someone, but i dont want to call anyone up for the sake of talking, so im updating. i miss justin. i miss justin. i miss justin. i miss justin. i miss justin. whywhywhywhywhywhywhyWHY!?! gah. and i have work tmr, i hate the afternoon shift. it's mad boring cause there's hardly anyone to serve but you still have to keep a look out, which kinda is stressful. I HATE BEING ALERT. oh yea, and i forgot to punch out after work today, i hope my friend helped me when she did. DAMMIT. SO FUCKING STUPID! if the scary manager works tmr he's probably gonna talk to me about waking up again. and i forgot to write my work schedule for next week. FUCK. two important things i forgot to do. FUCKFUCKFUCK. okay, hopefully tmr i can do it when the manager has his back turned or smth.

Loserkids and their Fireworks

2006-08-08T17:45:46Z

just look, there were like a million people at the esplanade lah.

ooh, redsz: elias made me do it!

"best" friends: they are for stepping on

AND SITTING! donn is evil. haha.

me and elias: i look like sheeet.

shaun, josh and sly met us later: shaun, me and donnzy.

sly and donn: gay.

and these are a few photos of us crossing the cte: HAHA.

okay, that's about it. and there's some problem with lj, i dunno why my words are all "link-ish" when i type. /: poo. had fun with donn and elias today. (:

Name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head? don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people. this is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first . no cheating!!

01 justin
02 nora
03 donn
04 ally
05 elias
06 ashley
07 chai
08 tiantian
09 paul
10 bea
11 majo

how did you meet 10 ?
ij.

what would you do if you had never met 6 ?
erm. i have no idea. no one to have coffee and stupid lame ass talks with.

what would you do if 6 and 2 dated ?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. omg. hahahahahahhaa. too weird.

have you ever seen 4 cry ?
yes.

do you think 1 is cute ?
yes. always.

tell me something about number 11 .
boy crazy. HAHA!

how do you know 8 ?
through friends from church.

would you ever go on a date with number 5 ?
err. doubt so. but he's an awesome friend, so it'll be way to weird.

what's 7's favorite color?
haha. i have no idea. maybe green or brown. or black. hahahaha. i dunno!

what would you do if 6 confessed they liked you ?
that will never happen. it's way to weird.

fact about 9 :
your singapore idol who is a minah magnet... and he is damn stupid at times. hahaha.

who is 4 going out with?
kaysee.

who is number 5 to you?
a great friend. someone whom im not afraid to share my problems and happiness with.

would you ever live with 11 ?
haha. i wont mind.

Is 2 single ?
YES. GO GET HER.

where does 7 live?
upper thomson.

what do you think about 3 ?
insane, loud, insane. hahaha.

what's the best thing about number 8 ?
he's a serious and stable person, but he can be the funniest person on earth even though he is SOFA KING LAME.

what do you like about number 10 ?
she's funzzz and crazy. haha.

favorite memory with 2 ?
haha. SUSHI DATES. oh and that time in class when she was reading that bollywood magazine. HAHAHAHA. hilarious.

backseats and motels.

2006-08-08T11:37:58Z

i got my posb card today. like FINALLY. after 92347827312 years. okay, fine, only one and a half years, but that's only cause i finally have a job that im sticking with for a long time. yup. and finally my dad isnt all paranoid parrot on it. yay. and i think im going to watch fireworks tonight. (: i hope i can meet donn in time, cause i really do want to go. plus i have my nikon in hand tonight. yay. i bet tonight's gonna be mad crowded lah. knn. but i wont be able to watch fireworks any other day, so yea. poo. i remembered watching it last year with the band and spencer and samuel, i think. that was back when bryan was still in the band and we were still 'area 24'. yea, stupid name, but wilfred thought of it, so you cant expect much. haha. it was really fun walking from town all the way to the esplanade and waiting till midnight to catch them. i even remembered the stupid jokes they all kept making and how bryan and leslie were video-ing the fireworks on their phones and suddenly people started calling bryan + his battery was dying and the merlion was blocking the way or something. hahahaha. anyways, yea, those were the days. i cant believe it all happened a whole year ago. i really cant. my o'levels couldnt have been less than a year ago. and i cant believe that was when andy and i started arguing over stupid things, and around the same time we stopped talking (looks like it's happened again). anyways, gah, im suppose to meet elias soon, and donn too later on. but elias is still at home. GAH. boredboredbored. okay, hopefully tonight i'll bring back a few good photos of fireworks. yay.

we'll hold each other soon.

2006-08-07T12:54:18Z

i injured my knee today. ): cause shaun michael chan had a "brilliant" sense of direction, even though i told him we had to turn around since we were walking the wrong way the cdc (communicable disease centre) to visit fabian who has dengue. so yea, donn, shaun and i had to jump over those stupid barriers along the cte and we even attempted to run across the cte. i knocked my knee into the barrier and now, there is a big bruise, so i cant really walk properly. in the end, we walked to a little opening in this bush, and managed to jump over a large drain (i had to jump into it though -__-) and found a way to the overhead bridge. i will have pictures up when donn sends them to me. i promise, it was the funniest thing that happened today.

i think i actually feel pretty okay, cause i got to meet donn and we went on some stupid adventure on the cte with shaun. im glad i didnt have to spend today alone, cause i'd feel so bloody shitty. oh yea, and i got my first paycheque today! :D but im saving up for a canon eos 300D. it's mad sexzy. ~~i wonder how justin is doing today~~. ugh, my knee really hurts. i think working on wednesday would be really fun, unless my knee still hurts, cause my managers are making us wear the singapore flag tattoos on our faces. hahahaha. oh yea, plus the pay is double. yay! so i really am looking forward to working on wednesday. ~~my second month with justin is coming in a few days, but i doubt he even remembers.~~ i need to get new shoes. gah.

13 more days.

i've been waiting for so long.

2006-08-06T15:52:04Z

yay. this was a good weekend. yup. i will ignore the fact that donn has been extremely hurt by someone who i thought wanted to die cause she didnt want to be with him anymore.

anyway, peekshures of my weekend (alison's party), cause im too lazy to type.

second storey: yes, they are an odd combination.

boys will be boys: spot jastyn and dexter.

justin: yea, and i got bored.

sunhaven: like which condo has a friggin skatepark in it?!

neek and chai: matt rawwker siall.

and i got bored: this is a good example of an over-exposed picture. ): and no, i didnt edit it like some people do to make it ugly.

justin: still sleeping.

jastyn: second picture --> HAHAHAHA!

okay, hopefully on tuesday im not working till late, cause i really wanna go watch the fireworks with donn this year again (since i cant make it on wednesday or friday).

donn:
please feel better. im as angry as you are. seriously. i cant believe it. i just cant.

yup, im done. bye.

to whom it may concern

2006-08-04T17:51:16Z

behind the mask you'll find yourself alone.
it's not the end of the road for you.

wash away what they thought of you,
because in this place, we're all as good as dead.

new stuffszxzx

2006-08-03T15:05:17Z

YAY! new aviators! YAY! a new top! :DD

okay. i had to put a peeksure up. and i dont have a peeksure of the top, so... YAAHHH. i feel happy. whoohoo!

Kuntstatine.

2006-08-02T17:10:22Z

HIHIHI. HELLOHELLO!

IM IN AN EXTREMELY GOOD MOOD TODAY. HAHA. AND IT IS A SEEKRET. NO, I DIDNT GET SOME. SO YAAHHH, STFU. OR MAYBE I JUST HAS TOO MUCH COKE AT WORK THIS EVENING. WHOOHOO! HAHA. OKAY, I KNOWING TYPING IN CAPS IS DAMN ANNOYING SOMETIMES. AND I JUST REALISED I SPELT 'KNOW' WITH 'ING' BEHIND. HAHA. WTH. ANYWAYS. HELLO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to work closing tomorrow againnn. ): gahgahgah! heyoheyoheyo. okay, that was random. i feel like putting a peeksure up, but i dont have any peeksures to put up. OH YEA. IT IS PAST MIDNIGHT, SO... HAPPY HAPPY RICE FESTIVAL!!1!1!! BE HAPPY, ~~OR YOU WILL GET HAPPY RICE THROWN AT YOUR MISERABLE GLOOMY FACES~~. HAWHAW. maybe that's why im so happy, cause it's the HAPPY RICE FESTIVAL! WHOOHOOO!

okay, i think justin is going to have a hard time getting me to be serious when he calls me later or something. HAHA!

stoooopid!

2006-07-31T20:16:40Z

okay wow. it's exactly 4am.

anyways, i was watching this random movie i randomly picked off my dad's shelves of random vcds, cause i couldnt sleep and i was pretty bored and random. 2 minutes into the random movie... i felt, 'hey, maybe i should go get something to eat, or i'd be hungry or something.'. so okay, i went to the kitchen to get something to eat. since cereal was the only thing i could probably eat with little or no preparation, i chose to have the koko krunch cereal which we bought ages ago, but was only half gone. i always have my cereal with milk or a glass of apple juice, but apparently, we dont have apple juice these days. ): so yea, i went for the milk. after adding milk to my cereal. it suddenly hit me that the cereal had an expiry date on it, and i searched over the box for some indication. it was still far from expiring, so i got a spoon and went back to my room. while watching and having the cereal, i realised there was something odd about it. the milk seem to be a little different. i cant really taste very well cause my sore throat and shit seems to be affecting my taste buds in some way. upon the last few scoops, i looked carefully into the bowl and realised the milk was clumpy or something odd like that. and it made my koko krunch look like it was covered in slimy dandruff or something similar. 'WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!' yea, and i went to the toilet and spat out as much shit as i could in my mouth (i dont puke, cause i hate puking). and i went down to the kicthen to dispose what was left in the bowl. at the meantime, i checked the expiry date on the milk carton, 'best before 31 july 2006'. I AM TWO FRIGGING DAYS LATE. AND NOW I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE TO SUFFER DIAHORREA (spelling?) OR SOME STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT TOMORROW!!! okay fine, my fault cause i refuse to vomit it out. BUT STILL! ugh!1!1

i cant fucking believe i checked the expiry date on the CEREAL and not the milk. brilliant. i hope i dont have diahorrea, cause i have work tomorrow evening and i dont think i could find a replacement or anything in time. plus, I DONT WANNA SPEND TMR SHITTING MY KOKOKRUNCH OUT! gah! please may 2 days worth of milk fermentation not harm me in any way.

passing time

2006-07-31T12:02:55Z

Occupation: part time student, part time server at nydc, a full time piece of driftwood.

Star Sign: scorpio

Favourite singers: jason wade of lifehouse, adam of tbs.

What is your favourite song? Why?:
atm, sunday drive by the early november. i love songs that are capable of making me cry. heh.

Which album would your friends be surprised you own?:
i actually have quite a few. but maybe it'll be backstreet boys' chapter one, which was bought eons ago.

What is your favourite television program?:
haha. fairly odd parents/desperate housewives.

What are your favourite foods?:
salmon sashimi, new york pizza, roast chicken spaghetti. and lots more.

List some things you are good at doing:
definitely not giving help or great advice. i think i can type pretty well. and i guess i earn trust pretty well cause im frank/sincere with people.

Tell us 3 things that we don’t know about you.:
i really listen to people though it seems like im stoning but im also thinking at the same time about their situation, i have no idea what nydc really stands for though i work there, and i think i've grown out of all that hxc and emocore stuff.

Describe a typical day in your life:
wake up. go back to sleep. wake up and realise that im going to be late for something. go to work/school/where ever. come home. go online.

Use three words to describe yourself:
thinker. blunt. introverted.

Tell us one thing about you that people are always surprised to learn about.
that im not chinese. its just this thing that people in my work place always think im either a baba, or eurasian or some mixed thing.

What physical qualities do you look for in a girl/guy?:
nice arms/broad shoulders.

Tell us one experience with your girl/boyfriend you’d never forget.:
leichey.

What is your worst recent memory?:
getting caught sneaking out! knnbccb!

What animal best describes you?:
a little mouse. even my manager thinks so. -__-

What makes you nervous? Why?:
the fact that im not glamourous or mint. the world is getting more and more superficial, i might not be able to be part of this world anymore.

What is the worse thing a friend could do to you?
choose another person over me, after promising this and that.

What is the one thing you will do if you found out the world is going to end tomorrow?:
tell the last person who really pissed me off that she is a total hoe and that she missed her chance to get a life, since the world is going to end the next day. and i will probably spend all my money on really good food that i refuse to spend on due to the price, erm... and i guess have a huge gathering with all my friends and some family.

sucky set

2006-07-30T17:00:52Z

so yea, our set was sucky. due to me forgetting a few lines suddenly, extremely bad timing, wilfred lazy to sing, andy not playing like a whole part in a song, and an out of tune lead guitar for the first song. yup. but nonetheless, i have a pictures ~~though kinda sucky too~~. however the feedback didnt seem too bad. so thank God for deaf ears i guess. haha!

and some more: here!

after that justin, jeremy and josh went to gas haus for the crossbred + august star gig. i think the set wasnt great at all either. cause the amps were pretty screwy. oh well. okay, that's about it for now. byebye.

GIG!

2006-07-28T09:09:54Z

due to a sudden change of events, i might just have the gig after all. yay! and yes, andy will be playing for us, as he will be discharged from hospital tmr afternoon. im only really hoping nothing bad happens on saturday. omg. that's like tmr. AH. anyways, please do tell me if you are coming so i can get tickets at a cheaper price for you. (:

mhmmm.

2006-07-27T15:15:14Z

please note: my band isnt having a gig anymore. as our rhythm guitarist is in hospital again. please pray for him.

and right now, im really happy with certain things. so... i rather not think about anything else, especially since it doesnt really concern me much or at all. take care everyone, and stay out of touble.

midweek

2006-07-26T15:44:06Z

ohgays. im like a damn tired. i screwed up like a gazillion times today at work. okay, maybe just twice... or thrice. BUT THAT IS STILL DAMN A LOT AH. dont know what got into me today. ugh, i hate wednesdays. didnt feel too good at work, hence, the smaller smiles and sullen face. but after work today was gooood. im feeling fucking gelat now. all that cake and spaghetti. i think my colleagues are uber nice. except a few grumpyfarts around. thank god i dont have to work tmr, cause im dead tired. i really really wanna watch a movie tmr, but the band's going jamming in the afternoon. farrhgggg. so im really hoping we wont sound too shitty at our gig this saturday. oh dammitzz. i just realised i forgot to go swimming with donn this morning! faaaaarrhhhhhgggg!

donn:
IM SORRY I FORGOT TO GO SWIMMING WITH YOU AT THE CHALET. PLEASE DONT BE PISSED WITH ME, THOUGH I THINK YOU PROBABLY ARE. sheeeez. i really am sorry. and i hope things are alright for you. as in... you-know-what. love you.

i seriously think i need help. i seriously think i need you.

PROBLEM FINALLY SOLVED!

2006-07-25T18:23:28Z

it scares me to think that you could find takers other than me,
and ~~better~~ than me.

i had this really weird dream. i think it was more of a nightmare. and i really hope it doesnt come true, cause i think i might just fucking die if something like what was in my dream happened... although i had a really sweet apartment somewhere in thomson or something, and i had my old maid still working for us. i guess i really do miss her, and i am still not over the fact that she is gone for good, i keep thinking she is on holiday now or something. fuck, i really do miss her. oh, and for some weird reason i had an elder sister in my dream. i guess i really do think too much. i dont know. i dont know. i dont know! oh yea, and justin is trying to cure my bad habit of saying 'like' and 'i dont know' too many times unnecessarily in my sentences. but somehow, i just feel it's stunting the way i speak. like i hestitate a hell lot, and he told me to use space fillers. such as 'erm...', 'err...', etc. but i think it makes me sound more stupid, cause they are not actual words. oh well, like... whatever. <-- HAHA.

ugh. okay. so i found out that i pressed the num lock on my lappy unknowingly, panicked like a kanchiong spider and typed with great difficulty for two hours, until i updated my lj and waygroovy told me that i probably pressed that button. well, im just glad that episode is over. haha. yay!

THE VALLEY MOSH

2006-07-24T16:46:07Z

hello everyone!

there's a gig this saturday at loyang valley condo (it's near pasir ris), organised by avery wong ~~monkey~~. supposedly a birthday "treat" (inverted commas due to it not being free). complete details are as follows...

THE VALLEY MOSH
date: 29^th july 06, this coming saturday!
time: 6.30pm till 12midnight
venue: loyang valley condo's function room (nearest mrt is pasir ris)
how to get there: bus services 109, 9, 19, 89, 6, 59.
tickets: $10 presale, $12 at the door (so order through me or something)

FREE DRINKS FOR ALL, ALL NIGHT.

bands (in random order):
radiant distortion
trella
the errant end
her black despondency (mybandmybandmyband)
burning forsothyia
melanie murder
caracal
fourth avenue
savage messiah
and more!

tees and food will be sold too.

yes, it'll be my band's third gig, but this time andy will be our rhythm guitarist. woot! do let me know if you want tickets asap, so i can tell avery monkey. (:

))):

2006-07-22T19:37:58Z

I remember someone old once said to me,
That lies will lock you up, with truth the only key.
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place could soon become my hell.

So is it better to tell and hurt, or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind,
You know I will not let you down.
Cause we were the special two and will be again.

And we will only need each other
We'll bleed together
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's
cause we're the special two.

And we could only see each other
We'll breathe together
These arms will not be taught to need another's
cause we're the special two.

i do miss you.

home club

2006-07-22T13:19:20Z

photos from home club last night.

4th avenue: yay! nigel's back. (:

kc: body surfing.

donn and i: she's all lesbo.

fabian, shaun and i: hahaha. look at fabian.

hot calerway dude who has the same shirt as i do.

ally and i

josh: awww, poor baby. hahahaha.

avery monkey and i

more photos: click here!